Hello April

A new month is starting today. I love the start of things. They make me feel like I can have a fresh start to the goals I had in previous months but didn't accomplish. I really like schedules and used to live by them a lot more than I do now. I have been trying to get back to one for both my kids benefit, and for mine. This schedule (which I wrote out and had hoped to start last month) involves gym time for mommy every day, school and craft time with my boys, and just general play and peace time with my kids. I love being a mommy but realize that I am a better mommy when I have the structure that I function well in. So, even though this morning hasn't started in the best way yet, I am determined to make this a successful month for me and my little family. :) And, since I know that it won't always work exactly as I foresee, I will also be working on my own personal growth in handling the days that don't go as I would like. To a new month .. Happy April!!

Icky Sickys

I hate being sick. Of course, I don't know anyone who really enjoys it. As the mama, I try to shield myself and my babies from what germs I can, but they still catch ya sometimes. And when they catch ME, they usually catch me good. I try to push through at first .. working harder than usual to keep up with the daily grind of our home. This will later bite me in the backside, as I ignore taking care of myself. This past week, this is exactly what happened. I had forgotten how much more work it is for mama to be sick with an infant. 2 weeks ago, when my boys were fighting the bug, I boosted my Vitamin C intake to try and boost my immune system and shielded Raia the best that I could. Then, Friday, it hit Raia and hard. My poor little girl is super congested and it is a struggle for her to even eat. Add on the fact that she pushed through her first tooth, she is just not so happy. Everything came to a wonderful emotional break down in the middle of the night on Saturday. I had finally gotten her to sleep at about 11 and fell into my own bed, EXHAUSTED! I was awoken to her screaming at 12:30 and tried (without success) to comfort her for about 30 min. Since she was going to scream whether I was holding her or not, I tucked her back into her crib and fell back into bed, crying myself to sleep to the sounds of my baby crying. Thanks to my wonderful hubby, I got some extra rest yesterday and my little princess slept much better last night. So here we are, onto another week, and although I feel like I am starting off 'behind schedule' as I didn't accomplish usual weekend cleaning activites, I know that I did what I needed to to take care of myself and my baby. Now to dump the toys in the tub to clean off the icky sickys! :)

Wanting my happy baby back soon!