Change

Change. It is a part of life whether we want to accept it or not. I am quite fond of change, most of the time. It is the time of year when colors change and the cold sets in and in turn, I enjoy the fun of having my hair a darker shade of red. Following my ambitions of the start of my new year, this week has brought change to our home, as I have been re-organizing rooms and clearing out trash. I am setting up an area for my sewing creations to take form, yet be easily stored come dinner time :). I love re-organizing! My boys followed me around yesterday asking why "everything" is different, as my re-organization spilled into their playroom. I told them that change is good and makes things feel new. They of course agreed with me cause they are still young enough to do that. :)

While I was moving furniture around and cleaning up dust bunnies, I thought about how easy it is for us to avoid change because we don't want to believe that it will be better. As I mentioned a bit in my first post, I have been enjoying my personal pitty parties. For me, they are most often centered around finances. I had been feeling frustrated about the sacrifice I made in returning to work last year and the time I had lost with my boys because I was having a hard time seeing how it had helped us. With the arrival of our beautiful little girl and me returning to my favorite job of full-time mommy, finances quickly became tight. I won't lie; I chose to direct my anger and frustration at God (again) and was just plain sick of trying to have faith that it was okay and that He would provide.

Through out this time, we were getting involved with a small group again and as a group had been working on what we wanted to study. The decision was on the book of Matthew. At our first meeting study meeting at the beginning of this month, we began discussing the introduction to Matthew, which I had unfortuneatly not prepared for. Guess what? There is a lot of talk of having Faith! I couldn't help but laugh a bit inside as I do find the ways God has pulled me back to him quite funny at times. Apparently I am very much like the strong-willed stubborn people in the Bible and need to be constantly reminded to keep the Faith. I am certain this will be a good study for me and that I had better keep up with the "homework." :)

So, I chose to let go of the bitterness inside and step out in faith in not only my new business venture, but also with our finances. Wouldn't you know, the morning of My New Year, changes occured at Justin's work that got him a promotion and a raise. That was the best birthday news and my own personal reminder from God that He is watching out for us!

Change is good; Change is hard; But Change is often needed to keep us moving forward. I love Change .. Most the time!!