Let Go

A simple two-worded phrase. Let Go. It has been popping up in my life over the past 2 weeks; sometimes visually, sometimes audibly, sometimes a whisper, and sometimes a shout. 

It started (or at least I first paid attention) 2 Sundays ago with the purchase of a book. I read the intro and was immediately having one of those 'DUH' moments. You know the ones where you read or listen to someone else share something that you have known deep down but through their words, it finally actually clicks. The author was specifically addressing the need to LET GO of the life before kids. My life will never look the same as it did before. Even though there will come another time when it will be just Justin and I, it will not be the same as in the beginning. And that is OK!! He was also sharing how it is good and healthy to grieve as it is a loss. I needed to hear that.

Fast forward a week and I am driving home after our last Monday morning Bible Study before Summer Break. What an awesome time of sharing and loving each other it was. I was processing the things that had been shared and my thoughts quickly turned to a 'TO-DO' list; not a typical to-do, but one of changes I had been wrestling with making (know you NEED to change having a hard time LETTING GO). 

Let Go. It began quietly in between the changes I was mentally adding to the list. Let Go. Again and Again. Pretty soon, it was the only thing repeating in my head. LET GO LET GO LET GO LET GO LET GO!!!!. It was loud and seemed to be repeating faster. I found myself at the stop light before my house saying it out loud with tears running down my cheek. Not sad. Relief. Happiness. 

There are many things I am realizing that I am holding on to from the past that I need to Let Go of. I have loved the many reminders that keep popping up to keep me on the path to making change. Even this morning upon sitting down to write, I saw this little quote: 

"You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one." 

Of course I saw this quote on Facebook, which transitions me to the big change this week: Spring Cleaning of my Facebook page. All the advances in technology are great but have certainly helped us become more disconnected than connected, at least in the REAL world. I have come to see that there are many ways I use my Facebook page that simply waste my time and make me feel upset or angry, jealous and envious, etc. Yes. I am a stalker. But I am done. I am cleaning my lists to include the people actively involved in my life. Even now I shake as I hear the people-pleasing me in the distance, 'you will hurt feelings.' How ridiculous. This is about me taking care of me. 

Let Go. 

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead."  -  Philippians 3:13