My Lights in the Sky

Growing up, I didn't have very many friends. Sometimes it seemed like I did, but as I think back, I realize that they weren't true friends. The only time I really felt 'popular' was in 4th grade when I was in a big fight with my cousin and you either liked her or me. In my mind, the WHOLE school was divided over this issue. Pretty sure now, that wasn't the case.

I am a fixer. I think it is a side effect of my perfectionism. I couldn't stand to see people upset with each other and would quickly try to mediate the problem. This led to the feeling of having friends, but most of them just used me.

So enough with the bumming. Despite all of that, I never felt lonely at those times. It is more when I look back that I see it, but that is the past. As an adult (at least I am told that is what I am), I have struggled more with the whole 'Friends' issue and feeling lonely. However, I have been truly blessed with some amazing friends.

These are REAL friends. We have had rough times. I have hurt them and perhaps they have hurt me, but we worked it out. We have laughed, cried, and shared many wonderful times together. Through everything, we have only grown closer together and I have learned to be a better friend. We are a Framily (thanks Kathy for sharing this word cause I love it), living life together.

Over the past few months, I have been even more blessed as God has crossed my path with some pretty amazing women. I can't even find the words to describe the feelings I have when I think of these women and the gift they have given me. I can be myself. No mask. They encourage me and challenge me at the same time. I can share my struggles without feeling judged. Several of these women have known each other for awhile and yet they welcomed me in without hesitation.

I have felt very lonely. But no more. You ALL (old and new) have been Lights in my Sky, reminding me that I am not alone. THANK YOU! Two little words that I can all too often forget to say. Thank you for sharing your hurts and struggles. Thanks for sharing your praises and Joy! Thank you for loving me as I am!!